Push and pull

People are hard to read. You think you know what they're thinking of, and yet, you're never really sure. Their words say one thing and their bodies say another.

Even though I'd like to consider myself to be - somewhat - intuitive in gauging their minute reactions, some people are like Tolstoy (i.e. hard to read). But, I'm not the only one who thinks this; after talking to a few friends, they're also experiencing the same thing.

You lean in and they lean in, but maybe not as much. You kiss them and they're not pressing as hard as you'd like. You reach for their hand and they hold it, but don't grasp it hard enough. But, the thing is they don't retreat from your actions. It feels as if your attempts at acting upon your feelings are received half-heartedly. It's such a push and pull mentality.

At least it would be easier if we were all feral beasts, lunging at one another when we're hungry. It's much easier to have someone say they're not interested "in that way" instead of having me wonder if they do. I consider myself to be - somewhat - intelligent, and for someone who likes to have the answers to everything, this is one of those situations that I don't have any.