Pressure to perform
Being in the position I am, I have to be ready to perform at a moment's notice. Whether it's for a large group, or for one person, there's never an excuse for me not to jump when someone demands it.
But, I can't always perform and there are a variety of reasons for this.
Sometimes I'm not fully-prepared. Sometimes I'm tired. Sometimes I'm stressed. Sometimes I'm busy with other work. Sometimes I don't want to do a thing and just sit on my ass.
But, most often it's because I'm expected to be ready. I'm pressured into being something that I don't want to be. It gets stuck in my mind and hovers over my head like an anvil in a Loony Tunes cartoon.
And, it doesn't help if I imagine the other people in the room naked. One group, or one person; makes no difference. There have even been situations where they are naked, to no avail. I still have to get it up and get going (sometimes for hours).
That's probably the biggest pressure to perform: I have to make everyone happy.
But, I can't always perform and there are a variety of reasons for this.
Sometimes I'm not fully-prepared. Sometimes I'm tired. Sometimes I'm stressed. Sometimes I'm busy with other work. Sometimes I don't want to do a thing and just sit on my ass.
But, most often it's because I'm expected to be ready. I'm pressured into being something that I don't want to be. It gets stuck in my mind and hovers over my head like an anvil in a Loony Tunes cartoon.
And, it doesn't help if I imagine the other people in the room naked. One group, or one person; makes no difference. There have even been situations where they are naked, to no avail. I still have to get it up and get going (sometimes for hours).
That's probably the biggest pressure to perform: I have to make everyone happy.
Authored by S at 12:00 am
2 Comments:
i hate pressure to perform.
you're a little young to be having performance anxiety issues, but perhaps your doctor can prescribe viagra? I hear it works wonders...
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